It's been a while now

A few things have changed since the last message

number 1: I've left London
number 2: That's it basicaly, but it really made a difference in my life

So I came back home, the big advantage of that is that I will never ever have to live with A & R again, that's a big relieve (now I want to forget them)! Because when I look back it was a fight everyday. But ok that was 7 months of my life I have to accept them and cope with the fact that I really changed during this time. Because now I hate people... Before I was friendly. But being alone for a while gave me time to observe people and now that I discovered awfull things about humans and A. showed me the kind of person I never want to be, I hate everyone! No sorry, hate isn't the right word, I don't care about anyone, because they are not part of my life, time waist...

That leads me to talk about the people I care for... who don't seem to care about me!

C just dissapeared from my world, it seems as she is avoiding me , I don't know why, too bad!

J* is in love with me so I couldn't manage to see him since I'm back from London, so disgusting

A isn't in love with me, I cant't be sur but I hope because he is such an awesome friend

J only have eyes, body, ears, brain, time, attention, love for her boyfriend! And I'm really happy for her, but I wish that she'd be a little closer to reality! The way she is with him is kind of pathetic, she is sooo jealous and overprotecting! Now I don't know what to hope for her, that he has the same perception of love, so that they can protect themselves from the outside world, or that one day he will have enough of this insane love, break up, and I'm aware that she will suffer but finally come back to reality! She is looking for the father person in him

The father... can you imagine that, my best friends father told me that he is in love with me and that he wants to sleep with me! My god that's so weird, because I know her Mum (she hates me) and he said nasty things about her! Internet is too dangerous for the following informations, please refer to the red book!